More of My Story ...

So to continue on with my story.... What do you do when you find
yourself on your own with 4 boys and a one year old little girl..
And on top of them you have to deal with what life has thrown at
you in regards to your medical situation.. My own stubbornness
and disbelief that I could be Bipolar ruined my relationship with my
boyfriend he was the one person other than my kids that was my
whole world.. It was hard enough to adjust to being on my own,
having to budget my household finances, raise my kids, get my
divorce from my ex husband, try to somehow reconstruct my
relationship with my boyfriend and still try and understand and
learn about what I would be living with for the rest of my life and
how I could control it to the best of my capabilities.. I started taking
my meds, going to my doctors appointments every week and also
getting the extra help from doctors at the Phsyciatric Hospital as well..
I started keeping a daily journal, a log to keep track of my meds so
that I knew I had taken what was ordered by my doctors, a log on
what I thougth was helping me get through my day , and a log for
what I thought was causing me problems and grief etc..
Through going back re reading my journals and logs I pretty much
learnt how to figure out what I thought was causing me to either hit
high or low episodes in my life.. I started keeping a log for my
finances, what had to be paid when it had to be paid, what I had
already paid, what money I had for groceries and what I would have
left over after they were all paid up.. I don't get child support, and
my ex-husband didn't and still doesn't contribute in any positive
way with his children's well being.. I also had to deal with my kids
having alot of anger and hostility towards the situation with their dad,
as well as not understanding why their mom was always sick..
I honestly have to say if it wasn't for my older kids and my brother
and sister and some of the kids friends, at that time in our lives,
helping out with the younger kids and the house I would have totally
lost my mind... Family and friends are a huge asset in a persons life
that has to live with not just Bipolar but any medical condition, cherish
them they are the crutch for whats broken that people can't see on the
outside...